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: sallysmile; December 5th, 16:26

Current Mood:: relaxed

this is kinda true.
no point you being happy but what you really feel is lonely.
so yeah. yesterday was pretty much an advice friday.
the meet up with hafiz and the advice he gave left me deep in thought.
& he's right, things are not going anywhere.
someone has to voice out. if not things are forever gonna be that way.

baby, on the other hand, was pretty blunt.
he said 'if they don't care means they don't care.'
but when told of the advice hafiz gave, he agreed.
someone has to do the talking apparently.
& he assured me that no matter what happens, he'll be there for me.
:) adore you gemok. hehe.

had a date with cina. & halik join us after our dinner.
it's definitely easier for me to relate to cina.
she was kinda shocked at how complicated it is.
& she totally feel me. she understands what i'm going through.
she gave me the same advice as hafiz did. cos she didnt wanna see me hurt.
after hearing how this whole thing have affected me. & how i've put up with this shit.
so yeah. she told me that word is a big word & since we've been together for that long she don't understand how it can come to this.
told her of the decision i wanna make, she's kinda supportive of it. she just dun wanna see me hurt.
so yeah :) love you honey..
& thanks guys for making me laugh so hard yesterday.
those games we play at mac. the reminiscing of ite. halik's numerous tk menjd 'flings'. hahaha.
all that. it's been a long time since i last had a good laugh!! hehe.

cina honey..
i'm proud of how you handle the whole situation between you & him.
i understand how you feel. but you gotta know that it can never work out right from the start.
i'm suprise at how patient you were with him actually.
haha. but if only you come to me & tell me.
i would have given you my two cents worth & you wouldn't hafta go through all that.
hahaha. but you got the worst of the worst. like really. haha.
i love you still.

p/s: it's gonna hurt. but i want to.

i write: SunShine

similar..

: sallysmile; December 5th, 3:48

Current Mood:: relaxed

& i just got back from meeting my honeys (halik & cina) just now.
tons of laughter. it's been a while since i last laugh that much.
hahaha. anyways i came across this website while i was like blog hopping & this person just left a link.
got this from the website...

Today, I introduced my girlfriend to a female friend of mine, because I thought they would get along. Apparently they get along better than I expected; she dumped me for the other girl. FML

hahahahaha! cina.halik.bren.hafiz.sound familiar?!?! hahahahaha.

p/s: thanx for bailing out on me bestfrens. appreciated. :)

i write: SunShine

totally.

: sallysmile; December 2nd, 23:40

Current Mood:: crappy

voicing out won't do us good. it'll eventually lead to a quarrel. & after the sympathy speech. it will be back to square one. i guess silence is golden then. so yeah. things at every aspect of my life now hadn't been good. i dun really know why. i'm just tired of figuring things out. i'm tired of turning left & right trying to find someone to talk to. someone who truly understands me & who is willing to listen to me talk. each time when i thought i had that someone, i'll be greeted with bored face & a sudden change of topic. so i guess, keeping things to myself is better. though i feel like i'm gonna explode anytime soon. crying does makes you feel better, but only for awhile. it's like a tranquilizer, makes you calm, but just for a while. after the medication is gone, that effing feeling will come back again. someone always tell me 'i'll rather bottle things up & try to find inner peace within myself rather then confide in someone and end up getting crappy face & shitty advice from them.' well basically, i guess whatever that someone tell me is true. & ohh, a smile is the best mask of all. only those who knows you deep enough will know what you feel deep inside. but sadly, even those close to you won't figure out that you're wearing a mask. so yeah. i'm just tired of seeing what's going on in front of me & tired of hearing the stuff that i'm clueless about. this thing will hafta stop. i'll make that move. i'll take the first step to it. i'll rather be without any friends and feel happy.rather than haf tons of friends and feel lonely :) for alip & sam, i'm sorry for not responding to your text & calls, i don't want to end up pouring out stuff to you guys cause i know what you guys would say to me. but i promise to meet you guys before you go off okayy? hehe.

p/s: smile. even when you can't.

i write: SunShine

kinda feeling the blues.

: sallysmile; December 1st, 1:47

Current Mood:: awake

the blues pretty much hit me hard today.
didn't wanna do anything.
all i want is to just stay home & sleep.
but i gotta drag my lazy ass to school.
wish school was a lil fun but it wasn't.
chemistry on a monday? bummer!
was pretty excited when school ends!
plan to meet the bf for movie was shelved cause the movie i wanted to watch was sold out!!
geram aje aku & i was depressed!
but dinner & a walk around town pretty much makes up for it.
though we met for just a short while.
but the time spent with him is what i treasure most.
while most couple have the need to talk & talk.
baby & i just enjoy the silence between us.
a random kiss or a random hug speaks for itself.
it is those lil things that will make the heart flutter. hehe.

p/s: hold my hand tight.

i write: SunShine

i want.....

: sallysmile; November 29th, 4:03

Current Mood:: loved

yes baby. that's all i wanna do.
& ohh. i wanna haf tons of late night supper with you!! haha.
adore you my gemok bf!
happy 16th mthsary baby!
muuuackkss!

p/s: i'll grow chubby with you! hehe. <3

i write: SunShine

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